I look strong, but that is only so people don't slaughter me for my weakness. I am aloof so that I won't get hurt. I am critical and angry because I don't want anyone to get too close. That would hurt me more when they leave.
I am not me anymore. That is the simple and plain truth. I am no longer that Dutch student who lived a boring life in the south of Holland. I am an Element of Nature, result of a botched experiment. I am a reanimated corpse.
Sorry for the language, but fuck this post. Suicide is not cool, or funny, or have any sort of romantics. I lost my best friend to suicide, and I dont need these fucking post to ruin more peoples lives.