Somehow you got the wrong impression. I am not holding on to him. I have a great life now and no intentions of changing it. When the day comes that he wants to return, we would have a lot of discussion on trust and love.
"for those who like to act like baboons and think they win an argument just cuz they are loud. no you don't, i just wont stoop to your level of immaturity and act like a fool, i will walk away and let you make a fool of yourself ;)" I agree!
Stay away from narcissists. Treat them like they don't exist. Narcissists don't deserve to be a part of your life. Let the PHONY, evil, needy, entitled LOSERS kick rocks! They don't deserve to have someone as wonderful as you in their life!