a person or group that is friendly toward another because the relationship brings benefits, but harbors feelings of resentment or rivalry: Clearly, turning the competition into frenemies is good for your business.
I know, but I wish it didn& hurt. I& tired of wishing I was important enough for people to want in their life. Tired of being sad that I& left out. Tired of getting my hope up that I really do matter, only to be dropped again when I& not needed anymore.